Don't look back.

Yesterday I had a realisation. I had a realisation that I'm my own worst enemy.

I had a day where I woke feeling fabulous. I loved my outfit and I was having a good hair and make up day. Winner right? What could go wrong?!

What went wrong is that I'm self critical, self doubting and self conscious.

A friend 'liked' an old profile picture of mine, from 2 years ago. As I looked at the photo and then looked at myself, I felt horrible. What happened to that confident, skinny, fabulous person? I went from hero to zero in one look of a photo.

Then I looked at the photo again and remembered that night. I remembered that I was feeling fat and frumpy. I was feeling so self-conscious that I slathered myself in fake tan, slapped shed loads of make up on and had to seek reassurance from my housemates before I'd leave the apartment.

In a nutshell? I'm in a cycle. A negative, destructive cycle which I've decided to come out of.

- I feel self conscious, fat, shitty ...

- In a years time I look back and wish I looked like I did then ...

- This makes me feel even crappier about my current self.

... it goes round and round.

And you know what? Its bloody ridiculous. RIDICULOUS.

Yes we all have good days and bad days. We all look back to photos and reminisce about how we were. And all of that is OK. What isn't OK is being so self-critical that you ruin a confident happy you.

Own yourself.

Celebrate yourself.

Love yourself.

Every. Single. Day.

Because in 20 years time you'll look back to how fabulous and gorgeous you were and you'll wish you had loved yourself and your body all day everyday.

Wear what you want. Do what you want. Be who you want to be.

Be kind to yourself people.

Jess x